It is funny to look back on how I have seen things in the past. Perhaps it is inevitable. The same old hourglass may still look the same as it was. But its sands may mean different.
10/04/09 9:00p

Hourglass Time (meters) = [Time (seconds)][c],
where c* is the speed of a photon, a particle of light.
Time can now be measured in meters. Thanks to my Physics class for that great info. Yeah,great. After "time" being my every day life torturer, it's now another hindrance for getting a good grade in class. Time is so consistent: still as complex as it is.
Complex yet still so consistent.
It is funny how we get so bored wanting time to pass quickly. We do lots of things to "kill" it. We ask why is time moving too slow. But at many points we have a change of heart. When we are enjoying the moment, when we are cramming, when we are losing something or someone, how we want time to slow down. We even want to make it stop. Or even make it go back. But time is consistent. We people are not.
Good use of time makes good memories. Failure to do so makes regrets.
I am turning nineteen. So I say that the loss of time is proportional to my growing tall (Growing up is another matter.My growing taller seems more evident). And I look back to the goals I've reached, people I have hurt or took for granted and the chances I have lost. I hate how time can be my cruelest enemy: draining all my childhood away, showing to my face how I became the family's black sheep where I am the only sheep, bringing me the responsibilities of growing up and being an only child, depicting to me the fear of lost opportunities that I think will never be back.
I want to hold time in its neck. Pin it down and make it my slave. But I just can't touch it. It is in the fourth dimension, with length,width,height and something more we humans fail to explain. I want time to be out of my way. And the only way that it can be is for me to have more of it.
I wish I have more time.
TIme to change.
To forgive.
And to be forgiven.
To show that I care.
And be cared for.
To save.
And be saved.
TIme to say sorry,
I love you,
Thank you.
More time to make good use of.
And I almost forgot: time is relative. I wish more time for these people around me to still be around, for I'm praying for all my time because of them.
When we want the sand of the hourglass pour down faster, we fail to notice that it is burying us in. When we try to make it pour slower, we realize that we just can't. So we have no choice but let time be as it is and try our best to make the most of it. It is an attribute of existence- simply an attribute that will pass us all.
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*c=300000000 m/s
01/17/07 4:55a